March,2020 when spending great deal of time outdoors by myself ,wandering around our huge yard,staring at the blossoms of trees with awe ,fresh tulips ,camomiles. They were so inspiring and appealing ,the mixture of smells of flowers even seemed better than the quintessence of French porfumes. Those days I was feeling the ineffable joy and excitement because my ,cherished person ,my mummy,informed us that she bought ticket back to Uzbekistan ,to her motherland ,from Russia. What about daddy? - asked with wonder ,then she explained everything.I understood:he was also longing for seeing us,his children,and hug them with warmth and kindness,but his work was being a hindrance to do that. Those days,I was feeling inscrutable warmth of feeling, imaging myself welcoming my mummy,getting into her embrace and undergoing the sense of safety,belonging,having someone to communicate my emotions, express my thoughts deeply without fear of being ignored and rejected .Those days,I was feeling universal desire for seeing my mummy :days and nights ,the picture of mum's arrival occupied my mind ;saw her behind me smiling and sending airy kisses when looking at mirrors; saw her in my dreams: lying on grass and counting the stars together. Not only did my family members get sick of my songs about ties within mum and me that would be tightened again after few days,but also my flowers had to listen to my stories and plans associated with big part of my heart,my mummy.I was under those sweet feelings and thoughts until... Brother: "Have just saw on news,our government also called for shutdown due to the risks of spreading of COVID-19. What is worse,all flights in and out were cancelled and banned in Russia, nobody knows how long would it last, it's said that restrictions would be put on freedom of leaving homes and attending public events".Me:"Are you playing with my feelings,what about my mother's departure? It's today,after 4hours she must be with me,beside me!?"He:"The pandemic rules were passed yesterday according to news,listen it yourself if you don't believe."On the radio,on the internet and TV the headlines were verifying my brother's sentences,the unacceptable and ugly sentences for me .My eyes were filled with tears,felt something hard in the middle of my chest,it wanted to come out,but couldn't. After so many years of desperately waiting for ,yearning for the long-awaited moment of reaching my mummy,that tiny and invisible infectious disease put a barrier again between the two souls . Those days,the aroma of flowers seemed stinky to my nose,clouds above the yard were turning dark and mounting on me like rocks,trees were turning their back to me...Those days,I was feeling great despair ,Those days,I was feeling indigestible gloom. Days passed ,I started getting used to,seeked for something positive after accepting the consequences of pandemic. Day by day ,week by week I began to transcend hopelessness and pain,started to realize that it was break for every human being to take time and relax,spend your precious time with people who are invaluable to you ,who were standing by you through tough times . Realized that it was my turn to show my affection and love,my care for grandparents and siblings. Realized that,If I hadn't been thought to be strong to overcome those difficulties ,I wouldn't have been faced with such challenges by my Lord. During the lockdown , discovered the hidden talents inside me,learned the importance of listening to people more,made time for sharing inner thoughts with my two brothers as wall as uncovering their great personalities. But for the lockdown, specifically,for COVID-19,I wouldn't have come across with pile of great books which gave me insight of significance of patience,open mindedness,unselfishness , huminity and humility ,courage,integrity,a positive attitude and flexibility. Because of lockdown ,I found time to enhance my horizone,lear the lesson of valuing the close ones,appreciating what you have and receiving, importance of encouraging each other in every moment .What is more,with my two brothers, in homeschooling ,since we spend all of our time together:reading ,playing ,having meals,telling stories,making dishes,taking care and worrying about each other ,we solidified the bonds between us,actually,our relationships got so reinforced that our love in our hearts for each other were so heavy and warm that now we take every opportunity to give and provide one another with those kindness and regard,our love got so bright and hot that we are able to feel the warmth of ours evan in great distances. As it's said ,adversity or sudden changes make human wise ,I developed learning skills and discipline in acquiring languages. COVID-19 might have posteponed my union with mummy,but most importantly,it taught me the lesson of how crucial It's to develop strong personality and being courageous, possessing what it takes to live satisfactorily before gaining what you wish.