Friday, August 21, 2020. Dear Khumoyun I don't know who you are, even though we are the same person. I know you better than anyone else, even though where you are, who your friends are, how your horizon is, or if you even have different dreams as you used to. Right now, I am sitting in the room where you experienced half your life with many issues, dilemmas, and pain as well as joy and happiness. I can see a ceiling you stared at for hours on end when sleep just wasn't agreeing with you. I can see the desktop, full of the various book where you inspired to change your life tremendously to an excellent level. I can see the corner of the room right by the TV, where you liked celebrating special moments or crying on the toughest days. I can see the door you have closed quietly to avoid waking the family when you want to watch the sunrise in the early morning. Writing here, on the laptop that you bought with mum's unforgettable tears. I look around and see my life, which you now know as a memory. You may have forgotten everything about this room because you already have a brand new life in a foreign country but I hope you may not... However, it is the day that you had been waiting for so long and patiently because two days left until you start studying at your dream university. After nearly twenty years of life, I still have yet not discovered what I want to do with my life. I have no idea about what is ahead of me. Also, I have a little bit of fear that I don't want you to read this letter with any kind of regret which is the worst thing in the entire world. By the way, I think it is essential to let you know that I am not a genius, strong, or creative enough now but these are exactly what I expect from you. But more than that, I hope that you figured out what needs to be done, and how to do it. Even after four years, I know that we could still be in the same place: clueless, and being strangled by worry. I know that things could neither change a lot nor change a little. And it's okay if you continue being lost, still searching for a meaning of life. It's okay to face many challenges, being rejected and ignored by others. I hope you stayed friends with those who understand, and I hope that you have realized and completely accepted that it is truly okay to be confused or rejected. I say this to you because I know that this is something that I need to accomplish, but it seems to be taken longer than expected. When people tell you to "be yourself" I hope you know what they mean now. I hope that you are who I wish I could be. I hope that you are someone that I would look up to. Good luck out there, and don't screw it up cause I will be there before we know it See you soon, Khumoyun