Ive been spending so much time thinking about you, while I shouldn't be. My heart still longs for you, it still does. This never ending confusion that I am feeling every time I think about you. I know I should stop, I know everything was just a terrible mistake, you telling me everything was real even if it is not. My bad for believing you so much, for opening up my life to you, for allowing you to touch my soul, I should have known better. You are just the same as these people who have come to deceive me and leave me lying on the floor hurting so bad, you are just like them, comforting me with these words and ended up leaving a deep wound that I do not even know how to cure. You are just like them, telling me that you are a safe space but little did I know you are a death trap. I do not even know how to forgive you, you are just out there living your own life, living as it should. You should be accountable, you should feel miserable for the pain you've caused me. You should also think too much about all of this. But, the hell, I am such a good person, I still love your shits and imperfections and I pity myself about it. I will never say that I regret you or wished that I never met you. Because honestly, once upon a time you were exactly what I needed and wanted and even though it did not turn out out exactly what I expected to, you not loving me the way I wanted you to, you still made me the happiest. And I will never ever regret that. But please help me forget you, kill me to the core so I will no longer long for you. Take my heart with you, please never return it back to me. Please, help me unlove you.