I adore white marble, Love frescoes and moss on trees, Go wild for avant-garde. Cherish seaside moments, Towers and tombs, Ladybugs. Compact cities, bus rides, Watching people, Red headphones. Filming videos, moon, stars, Waves, mountain wind, Serene tea evenings. Hugging mom, Loving my body, Blinking lashes. Freedom to eat, Grateful for my parents, Happy to write these words. I am 21 years old. My story is both interesting and mundane. It flows calmly, like a peaceful river, morphing and bending under natural circumstances. I divide my life into three parts. Part One: Beginnings The start is quite dramatic and sad, but don't worry; it was quite a while ago. My biological mom died soon after I was born. My dad, already with my 11-year-old sister, couldn't nurture us both. Thankfully, he had two brothers and two sisters. My aunts and uncles took proper care of me. I was always between the village and the city, traveling regularly. But I especially loved the village: the chirping of birds, insects, the variety of animals, rainy days, and small children like me running outside, stargazing, and looking at the clouds without a care in the world. I loved creating DIY things and gifting them to my relatives. I strived to be as creative and fair as possible. If someone got a knitted scarf, another would get something of equal value—a super cute and detailed drawing, a notepad, and a scrunchie. I remember walking around with only one earring for a while, afraid of piercing my ears. Now, I have eight piercings: two on my helix, four on my ears, one septum, and one lip piercing. It's funny how life can turn around. I was exceptional in my village class and agreed with my mom's (aunt's) opinion (my Russian language, literature, and homeroom teacher) about applying to prestigious schools in the city. There was one particular school I dreamed of attending. It required extensive knowledge. After thorough preparation, I finally entered the examination room. But my heart sank after the first math test; I wasn't keeping up and solved only half the problems. Disappointed, I burst into tears when I saw my mom waiting outside. We almost returned to the village without trying the second round, but something told me to try anyway. While studying biology, my mom received a phone call. After the call, she came to me with a happy smile and said, "YOU GOT IN!" I knew what she meant immediately, and a waterfall of kisses followed. She always seems more anxious, happy, or nervous for me than I am myself. That's what it's like when you're a Capricorn and your mom is a Virgo. This is how the first part of my life ended—characterized by peacefulness, total protection, and love, despite some hurdles and struggles. Part Two: Teenage Years The teenage years are my second life stage. Studying from 6 am until 1 am, striving to perfect my grades, participating in olympiads, projects, competitions, and extracurriculars like dance club, volunteering, and Chinese, was an inseparable part of my life. I saw the highest number of clever and intellectual people and wanted to be just like them. This was the hardest and most curious part of my life, where I formed my worldview. I fell in love with a girl for the first time and dated a boy. I was deeply into science. I achieved great victories, won honorable places and mentions, expanded my worldview, and learned to be productive and disciplined. I don't like talking about this part of my life much since it was quite boring, filled with endless studying. Part Three: Introduction to Real-Life The next part of my life began when I moved to Hungary to study Business Management and Administration at Debrecen University. Initially, I imagined participating in tons of extracurriculars, opening my own business, and just chilling. The reality turned out differently. I started tutoring in the first semester, earning my own money without asking my parents for anything. I have already visited 11 countries, although I never prioritized travel before. I went to concerts, volunteered at an Ed Sheeran concert and several festivals, showed Turkey to my mom, found my place in Berlin, and, most importantly, got an opportunity to escape the rat race. I am still learning about new opportunities and seem to understand what I am supposed to do. I am incredibly grateful for the life given to me, and this is far from the last part of my journey!
Having a crush is painful but not having a crush at all is too boring! I have fallen for guys for my entire life, it's never been just once I was in a real relationship. Because when you called it a crush, it's always broke. A crush is totally a person you secretly admire and you already know you will never have. This is life; you fall for someone you can't have. If you are lucky enough, your crush might turn into your boyfriend someday. But that will happen only once in a million! Trust me, you are the luckiest girl in the world for having a crush as your boyfriend. #And again that girl isn't me. It doesn't mean I do not appreciate moments I have with them, I did. Every guy I've fallen for taught me differently and I can't thanks them enough for that.I've grown a little day by day as having them by my side. I'm getting closer every day to know what real love means. I have to say I've learned a lot. As I look back to the past when I still have them around, I don't regret anything. Yes, I used to be sad and cry but I'm not that person anymore.I just wanna say thank you for coming into my life, for leaving marks in my heart and letting me grow. You guys have taught me a lot as anyone couldn't. #First crush xD: I was super too young to know what love is. I fell for him who is three years older than me. We talked a lot almost every day via messenger. This must be a dream come true to talk to your crush every night before going to sleep, but things didn't get that easy.Then I slowly turned to be his crying shoulder, I have no idea when did that happen. I only know that I was there when he fights with his friends, I was there when he fights with his mom, I was there when he failed his exams, I was there when he needed someone. Once a crying shoulder, always a crying shoulder. He knew that I liked him but what he didn't know is that I wanted to be more than just a tissue paper when he cried. I didn't want to be someone he thinks of when he sad! I wanted to be someone he thinks of when he was happy. I was so sick and tired of listening to his drama stories. I was there with him getting through his tough time. But when he finally gets over his ex, his new girlfriend said she didn't like me so he had to choose between me and her. Guess what? he chose her! I totally had no doubt about that. Don't you see, when it's about being happy, he never thinks of me? I'm done of being a crying shoulder to anyone even he is my crush. #Goodbyeexcrush #thankyounext😂😂😂