Ammiel's skin tingled and her eyes sparkled as she stared up at the tall building. This was where the magic happened. The Zebulun Cancer Foundation. She had come to surprise her mum with lunch. She just hoped her mum appreciated her gesture. When she walked in and headed straight for the elevators, no one stopped her. She got to the tenth floor and walked to the door of her mum's office. “Hi, mum! I'm–” she trailed off when she opened the door to an empty room. “Mum? Mum, are you here?” She dropped the food on the desk and knocked on the bathroom door, then opened it. It was empty. She pulled out her phone and called her mum…and heard the sound of a phone ringing. Her mum hadn't taken her phone with her. She must have stepped out in a hurry. She sat down and waited. Ten minutes. Twenty. Thirty. Her mum still didn't show. She decided to investigate. She left her mum's office and strolled through the hallway. The tenth floor was eerily empty, so she didn't find anyone to ask. At the end of the hallway, she came to a door labelled ‘Cancer Laboratory 10-A'. Chances are her mum was probably in there if she wasn't in her office. It's where she did her research. She knew she wasn't supposed to go in unauthorized, but she was already here, and she was curious. She wanted to see the place where her mum made all her discoveries. The strong smell of sterilization and the bright fluorescent lights overwhelmed her senses as she walked in. The room looked more like a hospital room than a lab as she stood in between rows of beds. Most were empty, but some had people in them. She stepped further into the room to see they were all connected to wires and IV fluids. Was this some kind of clinical trial? She approached one of the beds and was surprised to see a girl who looked to be around sixteen. She looked sick as she lay there, pale, and unmoving. She was connected to a monitor showing her vitals, and to an IV fluid bag labeled ‘Zonamycin-12'. There was a chart placed in a pocket on the outside of the bed's footboard. She pulled it out and read: Subject 125 - Date of admission: 08-18-2022 - Date of injection: 08-20-2022 - Contents of injection: glioblastoma cells [IDH-wildtype} Progress of cancer growth: tumor cells began proliferating at a rate of 300cells/day and reached a size of 5 in. after 3 mos. Drug(s)/Therapy administered: - Radiation therapy was started after tumor reached growth of 5 in. Tumor only shrunk half in size. - Afterwards, Z-12 proved to be effective in further shrinking the tumor. But subject experienced side effects such as seizures, headaches, nausea & vomiting, and pain. Notes: 2 months after Z-12 was discontinued, tumor grew back more aggressively, reaching a size of 3 in. in 1 month. Subject was started again on Z-12. Due to severe pain and side effects, subject was heavily sedated with morphine. Progress of therapy is still being monitored. Prognosis: poor. Likely to be dead within hours after the effects of morphine wear off. Scientist in charge: Dr Moriah Tennet Dread squeezed Ammiel's heart as she gripped the chart with trembling hands. “No, no, no…” At that moment, the girl began to stir, and Ammiel stepped back in shock. The moment the girl began to regain consciousness, she started moaning. As if on cue, the monitor started beeping erratically. Ammiel stood there unmoving, watching the scene unfold. “Ugh…it hurts…” the girl muttered as she tossed and turned. Then her eyes snapped open causing Ammiel to jump in fright, the chart falling to the floor with a loud smack. “Help me, please,” the girl gasped. “Help…it hurts…” Without warning, the girl's eyes rolled back in her head, and she started convulsing. Ammiel gasped and staggered away from the bed, covering her mouth with her hand. Somewhere far away, she heard footsteps as she stared at the girl in horror. Someone pulled her out of the way. “Ammiel? Ammiel!” The person began shaking her shoulders, but she was transfixed by the scene before her. At that point, the person grabbed her by the arm and pulled her out of the room, forcing her to turn away. The last thing she heard before she stepped out through the doors was the flatline sound of the monitor. *** No one said a word for the next five minutes as Ammiel and her mother sat across from each other. Then Dr Tennet sighed and leaned back in her seat. “There are some things you don't understand.” Ammiel looked at her mum with creased eyebrows. “Really? Then tell me I was wrong. Tell me I misinterpreted what I saw, and you were not experimenting on those people.” She saw the answer in her mum's eyes before she spoke. “Sometimes, sacrifices need to be made for the greater good." For the greater good. She'd applied this same principle to every area of her life because of her mum, and now she felt ashamed. She closed her eyes and covered her face with both hands, letting the tears fall. It was over. She was lost, and so was her mum.

TOOTHPASTE GYAAN aka Wisdom It is probably something which we consider to be very trivial. However, one of the first things we do, once we're out of bed in the morning, is to think of it, and even use it. Yes! It's the toothpaste tube. There are about 30 plus local and international brands available at the next door pharmacy store or supermarket. Whatever be your brand, the fact that one uses a toothpaste tube is significant now. Wondering why? Believe me- there's a great deal behind that soft-squeeze-tube! After I joined UTC, a seminary in Bangalore, India, my observations on how people used their toothpaste tube, changed to a reflection, and even grew into a critical analysis on, ‘why people use their toothpaste tube the way they do.' Probably, my findings could be articulated sufficiently to award myself a M.A (Master of Arts) with specialization in the area of what could be called as- “Ethics of using a toothpaste tube,” or “Toothpaste Gyaan aka Wisdom.” I have personally observed different methods or styles when it comes to getting out the white, red, blue, or multi-colored gel out of that tube. While many don't actually care to give this even a thought, some are wondering what all of this has to do with one's behavior or psychology. I have made many discoveries myself while observing how people use their toothpaste tube. However, I always wondered- ‘How can I present my findings on . . . . . after all . . . . . a toothpaste tube? Who would recognize or appreciate it, let alone give it a patient hearing?' Will people not question- ‘Can anything good come out of a toothpaste tube?' How easily people repudiate the deep, intricate messages one has derived! I believe that it's not just the paste, but something more, that comes out of a toothpaste tube! Life and a toothpaste tube have parallels! You can get to know much about a person, noting the way he/she uses one's own toothpaste tube. I have drawn a few hypotheses, the authenticity of which (unlike those of newly-discovered drugs), need not be tried on laboratory rats or other beings. Researchers in clinical behavior are more convinced that you get to know more of a person through his/her sub-conscious, non-verbal behavior and acts. One popular Bollywood movie involved a scene where listeners of a radio show called the radio jockey to discuss their day-to-day stories and predicaments. The radio host would listen patiently to cases thrown on air and then come up with creative and witty solutions. One young lady had to decide whether the person she was about to meet at the restaurant should be her future life-partner or not. She was facing a dilemma as she had to make an important decision within a matter of 30 to 45 minutes. The radio host deftly handled the case and with much ease. All that he suggested was- ‘If the man called the waiter by making sounds with his mouth or called out to the waiter saying ‘hey waiter…' he was certainly not the person she should marry because the very fact that he treated someone who served food with disrespect or lack of warmth indicated that he had no place in his heart for human relationships and values and dignity of labor. The lady just followed the instructions aired out to her ditto, and by the time the order was placed by the man and he could turn back to her, she was gone. He had not called the waiter with respect. So, she quit. Strange…you may think! This analogy is an example to show how we are revealing ourselves everyday through small acts even though they do not involve any words, sounds or actions. These episodes are loaded with gigabytes of information enough to describe to the world who we really are. You could start your own fact-findings, all by yourself. If you are a good observer, it won't be long before you are a professional in studying people's not-much-noticed moments and handle situations effectively. The onus is not on catching people during their odd moments, but to process one's own ability of understanding colleagues, friends, relatives, and groups. Who knows? You may even earn a doctorate with what you have discovered. Never mind, if the world refuses to honor your innovations. Your understanding will certainly help improve relations with people in this world. More still, it facilitates self-refinement. So, dear friend, the next time you drag yourself to the wash basin for a brush, just give a brief pause. Observe yourself! Observe others too! Ask yourself- ‘What kind of a person am I?' Remember – There's more than just paste…which comes out of your toothpaste tube! Note: You may reach the author on utcsudhakarjoshua@gmail.com or +91 9886698818 (WhatsApp)

Self-Evaluation Exercises for Individuals Self-evaluation every once in a while may render an individual with the prospect of re-assessing oneself, as well as reflect on ones' accomplishments. It is basically a simple procedure to organize one's thought process in order to perceive, analyze and estimate ones own professional action and its consequences in order to improvise and stabilize. Though self-evaluation maybe a very overlooked term, ideally, it increases the capacity of learning among people of all ages and logically goes before any other sort of evaluations. Now the question is, how can self-evaluation be a tool for professional development? Let us take teaching effectiveness as an instance. Professional educators collect various intuitive data' on their on teaching efficacy and try to analyze their involvement while reaching out to the mass audience. Hence, self-evaluation can take on many forms and these different technique methods have found to be very successful. The students role in Self-Evaluation The perception of students' and their learning outcome is very critical to their personal and career development. If the students adapt to various method of evaluation themselves, they'll observe various outcomes from their results and will understand the level of their learning only to find out how much they're lacking or how much they need to cover the concepts in order to pass their individual assessment. From the data of these evaluation records, amusing results are noted. Sometimes, these results indicate that the students' are struggling and their learning aftermath suggests that they're themselves putting restrictions on their method of gathering knowledge. In conclusion, multiple research indicates, that students need more effective and accountable learning methodology to sustain and establish their effective learning outcomes. Approaches and Tools For Personal & Professionals Development Reflection on ones' professional and personal development is essential and enforces an individuals' improvement strategies for further development. Students seeking a higher education with certain academic needs are facing substantial challenges every now and then and need a very supportive learning environment to co-exist. Now, what are some of the human niches that might enable an individual to take measures for contemplating upon oneself while at the same evaluate factors responsible for tailoring a viable career pathway? Temperament Why do you think it would be so difficult for you to be flexible, task-oriented, self-confident in your career while at the same time boosting productivity without having to care what type offensive remarks you're getting from your colleagues? You're pouring heart and soul for your individual development, yet when you self-evaluate yourself, you still find those attributes almost impossible to achieve and you keep on thinking your job is still draining all your energy. Our temperament is an eternal psychological nature that determines how we think, feel and react. It allows us to make interaction, reflect upon the decision we make and apply the abilities we have gathered for development of self and others around us. Hence, it is necessary for us to study our own as well as others temperament type for a better understanding of everyone around us. What are the few modes of temperament? • Successful sanguine Their main strengths are- 1) They're full of confidence and do not take negative remarks. 2) They are sociable and have amazing interpersonal skills 3) They do not torture themselves with hackwork. 4) They are pro-active in any social discussions. • Assertive choleric 1) They are the most ambitious of all temperaments and goal-oriented. 2) They possess strong leadership skills and can exhibit them in projects with immense passion. 3) They are analytical, straightforward and persuasive. • Cool-headed-phlegmatic 1) They are the most special type of employees or student with immense self-control and patience. 2) They do not make any rapid decisions and have fixed habits. 3) They are good team players. • Dreamy melancholy 1) These are the introverted individuals capable of making a pragmatic decision after analytical thinking. 2) They're very shrewd, creative and classy organizer. 3) Strong problem solver. Hence, temperament is the factor which engages us on how to react, behave, think and work. If any of us or around us have any of these temperament moods, they're not an individual peculiarity but possess a psychological nature that can take them to a successful career and a happier life. Personality Insight Developing your personality and career go hand in hand. Here's how- • Your communication style with others will enable you to be in everyone's focus. • Your decision-making style will have everyone put confidence in you. • Once you create a value on your team, people will ask for your opinion as it will be highly valued. .