thinking of how fast autumn will be upon us. my warm jacket will have to brought out again soon. not looking forward to my back going bad again. the migraines will be more frequent. i am so sick of this. i hate the pain, the frustration. i just need some money to get things back to good again. things worked out the wrong way. i just wish I knew why and how. i know I am part of the problem, but there are other factors that are quite mysterious to me.