Today is a new day. January 1st, 2020 is the start of a new year. A new year for me to start my journey through something called life. Life cant be considered defined, unless scientifically. Life is a lot more than science. Its heartbreak, it's love, It's chaotic and unfair, it's confusion and arrogance, its fear of failing and the amazing feeling of succeeding. It's decisions, bad and good, that turn into lessons for more decisions. It's fear of the breaking of your mind, the breaking of your heart and of your soul. Its the building of the mind, heart, and soul through the break. How do you know that the choice of your journey is the right one? How do you know if your fit to be a parent or to get married? Why do we have to follow the guidelines of life? What if life was a simulation? What if the government is forcing religion on us for false hope? And what if life after death is nothing? Everything that has to do with life is suspect. And honestly, I'm sick of it all. Life will go the way I choose. There will be bumps and bruises but no matter what I will stand tall. I am a queen and the life I choose is my kingdom and I will honor that in the best way I can. From what I've experienced it has driven me to set myself apart from it. To move on and do what I want with my life, without the toxication, and without the hurt. I will be who I want to be. A Veteran Doctor, with the passion to help and care for people. An undeniable force of my soul to cure cancer or at least die trying. And to help children that have been through the same as me. I will. I will. I will....