For me, life is beautiful but not always easy. There will be struggle, there will be bad days, and there will be many challenges to encounter. Life is full of unexpected surprises, mystery, and chances. It made me realized that the way i live in the past three years is not the life i wanted to be in the future. If i am going to compare my life before from now, it's very different. The way i live my life before is worse, not pleasing, and i don't even know myself because i am blind not "literally blind" but i'm blinded with the truth, the truth that will set me free from chain. It's really hard to continue onto the next goal and move forward onto the next chapter of your life without acknowledging and thanking the Lord for all the things He had done. For all the resources and the things He provides that you have now is the great blessing that you can have ever in your life. I'm very thankful and joyful. Because there's a person He used as an instrument by sharing the word of God. This person is very passionate and i'm so blessed with her testimony. While listening to her i didn't expect or notice that my tears are slowly flowing all over my face because my heart was so touched by the mighty hand of Jesus. That time i never mind the people around me for all i wanted to do and to feel is the presence and His great love for me. It is really fulfilling because i fell like i am talking to Him and He is talking to me personally. He is always there standing and knocking at the door of my heart. He made me realized for all the mistakes and lapses, making me understand the real purpose of my existence, knowing Him as my personal savior, and the most important thing is understanding what kind of love He had given for us to be saved and redeemed from our sin. This kind of love is infinite, nothing can separate, and His will never fails. The happenings in my life is so fresh on my mind. I clearly remembered the day i have been given a chance to encounter Him and all i can say is "Lord this is a right time, a right place, and a right companion who are very passionate, disciplined, approachable, and a selfless servant who is willing to do and give up everything for the seek of your kingdom." I have decided to follow Jesus and there's no turning back. Because i am redeemed, set free, and forgiven by His grace. I have found my place in Him and there's a desire here in my heart to know the will of God, to find the will of God, and to do the will of God. Doing the things that make Him glorify is the greatest knowledge, discovery, and achievement that i will received. The life that i have now is the greatest gift He had given to me. I will treasure and will take care this salvation until the last breath of mine. I may not be perfect in the eyes of other people around me but i'm pretty sure that God never sees my imperfections. He looks the right intention inside my heart. He measures how deep is my love and faith in Him. I laugh and i cry. Sometimes i'm tired, lost, broken, and i don't know why but He replace my fear into freedom. When all seems lost in my brokenness i just call His name and He answer me. Through every struggle, trough every trial He made my burden light and brought me back to life again. He give me hope and shows me love even it's hard and with so much pain. His love wipes every tear away and calm the storm that surrounds me. I'll take this life and live like i was given another chance and try. What i am trying to say is the life you have now is still useless if Jesus is not the center of it. Knowing only His name is not enough if you are not living according to His purpose and will. We may know the name "Jesus" but we neglect what He have done for us. We forgot our first love, we ignore and abandon the Lord because we think that we can do do everything without His help. Always remember that we are nothing without Him but God is still God without us. We should humble down ourselves and know every action we should take ha always a consequences that can make or break our life. Thank you Lord for i am back to life again, back in your arms, in your love, and in your presence. The presence that will make me feel alive and thankful.