My Journey of Awakening & Discovery 2019 December 26, 2019 I must admit that 2019 was definitely a year of discovery for me. This culminated during my road trip of 4 months. My intention was not to stay from Texas for so long, but my road was paved, not from intentions, but desire. I wanted to reconnect with my friends in Tennessee, Mississippi, & Alabama. I successfully accomplished most of those visits. I had another quest, and stayed to try to accomplish it, but it was not to be this trip. Soon it will be because even though the wheels are turning slowly, they are turning! I learned my children are grown. The do not need me to parent as they did when they were young and finding their way in life. The need a parent that will encourage, love, and listen. I pray I get better at that in 2020. I came out of a 3 year fog of grief, but I still have days that are hazy. Mostly I have days of laughter, hugs, Memories, and occasionally those memories run down my cheeks. I look toward a future and I'm not dwelling in a past that will never be again, no matter how much my heart may want it to be. I realized I can care about someone, even if nothing more than a friend, to have dinner and a movie. I've not ventured out on that road, but it is enough for now, to know I can feel. Especially after being numb for so long. Drained of emotion and feeling for myself or anyone new. I am looking forward to a future now. I want whatever future that my most gracious Heavenly Father has set for me. All is well with my soul! My future looks bright because GOD kept the light on for me!! A Journey Through Grace By An Ordinary Woman- Cheryl