I never thought I would ever need a suicide hotline in my life. I was always the glue of my friends, the ideas of my team and the head of my family. In fact, I was the last person anyone would imagine ending up in a mental ward for an entire weekend, and yet, 1-800-273-8255 saved my life. Sabila, specifically. It had been a hard year. My sister became ill but I thought I had been handling it well. Until one day I had a panic attack that wouldn't stop. I called a hotline and told them I didn't want to do anything, any more, ever again. They helped me get to an ER where I was admitted to a wonderful place where there was art therapy, group sessions and surprisingly normal people. I remember going straight to my room and wanting to go to sleep forever, but I met a girl there who seemed so happy. I didn't understand why she was there but she was my angle. She made sure I ate food, attended classes and even showered. I was scared and thought it was over for me but I realized that this was a place for people to get back on their feet. That breaking doesn't mean it's over. Now I know that it was a new beginning and I will survive.